i need dependency

i realized that i hella wait around for people to help me with shit. and then when things dont work out i get kinda down about it but its my own fault for putting my effort into someone elses time. from here on out im gonna try to be as independent as i can..no more mooching rides..no more asking people to film for me..no more trying to get on other peoples shit..its not that im not appreciative because i really am and id like to thank anyone whose ever helped me out with anything but i need to get my own car and my own job and my own camera and my own clothes and everything. i need to earn my shit the straight way just like everyone else and quit trying to take short cuts.